After internal med rotation, I feel that I know medicine more in terms of medical knowledge and this whole medical field thing. To be honest, I have never thought of doing internal med for residency 3 months ago, but after my general internal med rotation, I find internal med a very interesting field to be in. I was quite into surgery before this, because I'm always amazed by hands on skills, especially after I have done some in family med rotation. I knew I like hands on stuffs. However, internal medicine is a totally new rotation for me. I had no idea how an inpatient ward works, how ward rounding is, what kind of patients I expect to see, what kind of management and plan before entering this rotation. But now, I'm not an expert yet, but I have so much passion towards internal med now and I have learnt a lot from this rotation.
There is always so much to learn, not only the medical knowledge, but also working as a team with different discipline from nurses, to nutritionist, to attending, to residents to specialists. Each of them has very different expectations. Not too high on students, but I always hope that I can perform my best. I was pressured by nurses before, residents helped out and I also did my best in doing my duty. At the end, it turned out to be a very happy ending. I'm glad I was optimistic that time. I knew I can do it! Lol.. However, working with different people is never easy.
Besides that, I have to mention that we are kind of like being thrown into the sea since the beginning of our rotation. We have to avoid predators and find food on our own before we are died of hunger. It sucks. And nobody helps us. And people always forget that we are actually learners. Of course, there are kind and helpful attending or residents who are willing to teach. I really appreciate it. Learn to survive in different environment!
I have to admit that I still have a lot weakness compared to the locals here. It is so stressful when I compare myself with the locals. I'm gonna turn this stress into motivation and I'm hoping that it can push me further, further and further!
Life is great when we are keep learning new things. I'm glad I'm learning everyday.
p/s: went shopping today and bought dresses~~ happy girl!! =)
